Hi Ho Hi Ho off to the doctor I go!!
I know I have been really bad about blogging lately
:-(
I will be returning to the doctor on March 7th to see what the next step of the shots all entails. I honestly am starting to believe will all of the hearts of hearts that maybe god doesn't want us to have a child. This is something that I want so badly,but it just isn't working out for us.
I am scared to death to do this last step that we can actually some what afford. I think to myself "what if it doesn't work and then we are really done?" "What if we get pregnant with 4,5,6,7,or8 babies at one time and I have to end up making some really hard choices?" "What if my body cant handle it do to my blood pressure?"
Than other things run though my mind like...."What if I am putting to much stress on this whole 'baby thing' and Tuna actually doesnt want a baby?" I know that we would be wonderful parents to a little baby but, then WHY WHY WHY wont god just let this happen for us??
I know I know I should try and stay postive and not think of the "what if's" all the time but it is hard and sometimes I just want to say forget it. I have been sitting her for the last 5 months wondering what I should do. Well I am just going to go for it. I am going to leave it in God's hands and hope that he will grant us with the blessings that so many other people in this world get to exprence.
I know it has been forget but I everyone still keeps us in their prayers and thoughts!! ~Love The Lange's
