New Necklace!!

If some of you may remember I had an older posting about fertility jewelry. I can across this necklace a while back and saved it to my favorites on my task bar. I loved the necklace the moment I saw it, but then forgot all about it. My mother-in-law asked me about it last week! So I went back to the website and it was GONE!!! I thought to myself CRAP i really wanted it. So I did a little research and found out that the lady who makes all the jewelry was just an every day women. I found out her contact info and sent her an email about the fertility necklace she use to have on her website!!!

She sent me an email back expressing her thankz in my interest in her jewelry. She said that necklace with shipping would normally be $67.00 but would give it to me for only $47.00 with shipping. I was sooo thankful for that. So I called my mother-in-law and told her to call the lady and give her the credit card information.

So in call her my mother-in-law told the lady to put a little extra "power/prayer" in to this piece because Tuna and I had been trying for soo long and the only thing we wish for is to become pregnant!

I got the necklace tonight and there was a handwritten note with the box that was sooo cute with a bow and everything! The note said....."I hope that Vanessa becomes pregnant soon! This necklace is on me,there will be NO charge to you account. Thank You."

I was in tears...Who does that these days????????? I feel so blessed to know that there are people out there in the world who care and don't even know who I am. I go to bed tonight feeling so thankful!! ~Love The Lange's

Step by step,Day by day

The decision to go off all the pills and let my body just relax,it is easier said then done! I have had a really tough time just trying to let myself relax and stop thinking about everything. It seem that the more I try not to think about it the more I think about it.

I know deep down that the only realistic solution is to have the In-Vitro done! It makes me sick and depressed to know that it is totally not an option for us. The coast to have that done is $25,000 which we don't have.

This quote rings in the back of my head each and every day. "God will make you guys parents and bless you with a child when the time is right!" So does that mean there is not right time for us? It honestly makes feel like I have shorted my husband the chance to have children!

I almost everyday look in the mirror and imagine myself with a "baby bell." I can only hope and pray that it will someday come true. People tell me all the time not to give up,but it is sooo hard not to. I think to myself "WHY ME?"

As always keep us in your thoughts and prayers!! Thanks to everyone who has shown us support! ~Love The Lange's

It Has Come To A Screeching Halt

I have decided to come to a screeching halt with everything. I am no longer going to take any more pills or vitamins that the doctor has given me. I am going to just let my body rest for a few months and see what happens. I can only hope and pray that my body will go back to "normal!" I would love to get my period on my own and ovulate but the chances of that happening are highly unlikely!! But hey it is worth a try!

I most likely will end up doing the In-Vitro Fertilization in the future. I just need a little time to see how we can afford the coast of this operation. I am willing to do whatever it takes to have a baby!!

On a side note...It gets me really pissed off when people write or say stuff about their kids! I often see it on facebook or hear people saying it. Comments like "My kids are sooo naughty...I am giving them away for free!" Or "I am sooo sick of my kids!" I just want to say to people sometime, you should be thankful and feel bless to have to children! There are many out there that would love to have children and can't!! I mean I know that kids can be a hand full sometimes and people just need a break. But honestly just look at your kids and be THANKFUL!! ~Love The Lange's

Need some time to just think!!

My appointment yesterday went just as I thought it would. The eggs didn't grow! :( So we are now back at square one once again. I really wish just once something could go the ways it should.

I have a few options of things I could do now at this point in our journey! The first thing being to have a surgery done. The surgery would entail me having my ovaries drilled and in some case that just brings on ovulation on it own. This surgery is a most before I could start the series of fertility shots. The shots are something that the doctor doesn't think is such a great idea! The reason is because you have a 97% chance you would get pregnant with more then twins. It is not idea to have multiplies in any ones case but in my case it is worse! My high blood pressure already puts me at a higher risk then most people. In the end it is up to me though. I also think to myself by the time I do the surgery and the series of shots, I could have spent that money on doing the In-Vitro Fertilization!

The second options is of course the In-Vitro Fertilization! I know deep down inside this is the best choice for us and so does the doctor. I only problem is the $$$$$ it is soooooooooo much money to do that.

I guess I just need a little while to think what we should do. I want to be sure about the decision we make. I don't want to pick something to just pick something. I WANT A BABY!!! I feel hopeless at this point! I feel so alone and wish that everything could just work for us. The day I can hold a baby in my arms and have someone to love with all that I have seems like just a dream these days!! ~Love The Lange's