Time goes by so slowly!

The time seems to just move by so slowly as I sit here and wait for something to happen! I wonder to myself...why wont my body just work normally? I am at the point in this journey now that I hate to even talk about it to people! Most people don't know what to say to me anymore. I almost feel like people are getting sick and tired of me talking about it all the time. I just cant help but think about 24-7!

I know somewhere along this road I have lost myself! I am so wrapped up in what is going on with all this infertility stuff I feel like I lost the real Vanessa! I feel alone and helpless!!! I also know that people say that they are there for me..but EVERYONE has there own problems to deal with!

I try to keep this prayer in the back of my head all the time..even when times are tough I have to always remember that God has a plan!!

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did,this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him forever in the next.
Amen.

As always please pray for us in this journey we take each and everyday!~ Love The Lange's

Frustrating

The amount of disappointment that I have is at an all time high for sure! There was and 80% chance that the surgery I had would make me have my cycle on my own and hopefully ovulate. Do you think we would be in that 80% chance...OF COURSE NOT!!

I have felt a few time that maybe I was going to get my cycle but then it never came. So my only hope that I have left is that I will get it in the month of September!!

I keep my fingers crossed and pray everyday that God will grant me with a blessing next month!

I will be returning to the doctor in October to let him know weather or not I got my cycle. If I don't get it in the month of September, then we know that the surgery was a flop! We will be looking at the next times at that time. I was really really hoping I wouldn't have to do that next steps. But there is still hope and I shouldn't stress my self and my body out of the unknown just yet.

I hope that everyone has enjoyed there summer! As sad as it may be summer is coming to a close very soon and before we know it that white fluffy stuff will be falling from the sky!!

As always thanks for everyone who keeps up with this blog and keep us in their prayers!! ~Love The Langes

The love grows everyday!

When I think of him my heart flutters a thousand times over.

His heart is so tender.

His mind is so beautiful.

The love that he give is unbelievable.

I treasure each and every minute with him.

He is my support system.

He is my world.

I can tell him anything and not be ashamed.

I couldn't be on this journey with anyone else.

He holds me so tenderly in my falling apart moments.

October will be 4 year.

4 years of bliss.

I LOVE YOU BABE!

As corny as it maybe..I honestly couldn't do this with out him or my family and friends.

~The Lange Family