I know now....

In the last posting I had said something to you about the Clomid pill. Well how that all works is you most have a period to take that pill. So that is why I got the shot to start my (fake period..mean it is not natural..they had to give me something to get it, and I don't ovulate because it is fake) so that I could take the Clomid. In my case I would start counting the first day of my "fake" period as day 1 and on the 5th-9th day I would take the Clomid. In hopes that next month I would get my period on my own. They want to you start on the lowest mg. that they offer, and work your way up. So the first month I started with 50mg. for 5 days and hoped for the best the next month. I did that for many months, I would go back to the doctor and start it all over again the next month going up in mg. by 50 every time. I finally maxed out with 250mg a day, so in the 5 day span i was taking 1250mg. Clomid is a fertility medication, so most people just take it when they get their period and most often get pregnant. But for someone with PCOS it is suppose to get this back on track. My body has a mind of it's own I guess. I know it is a bit confusing, took me a long time to understand. I hope I did a good enough job trying to explain it to you guys!!! :)

SO I KNOW NOW....that that new trial pill I was on didn't work! Someone who has PCOS and was on the strongest dose of Clomid, the chances of this trial pill working was not in my favor. The chances of this trial pill working was only 1 out of 3 women. I knew that my chances were not the best but it was worth a shot. The next steps we will be taking are going to be getting a little more pricey.

This coming Friday the 30th I will return to the doctor. We will be discussing the next steps in our journey. I am getting a little scared to go this time because it is the unknown. Since August I would pretty much know what was going to happen every time I would go back to the doctor. This time I know we will be talking about a series of shots. All I really know about them is the chance of having multiples go WAY WAY up, I think like it is 65% chance. I will be posting sometime on Friday after my appointment. So until then keep us in your prayers and thoughts in the next coming days!! ~Love The Lange's

Babies Babies Every Where...Why Not Me??

I often feel like where ever I go I see someone who is pregnant. I try my VERY best not to let it get to me. In most cases I just blow it off and go on with my day. Other days it consumes my every thought and emotion. I have set a goal to not think to myself when I see someone who is pregnant...Why her and not me? I hear people say to me ALL the time "when the time is right...God will give you a baby!" Well what if I never get pregnant does that mean that it was never the right time, or that I wasn't meant to be a mother?!? I know deep down that I need to keep faith and pray that there is a 'right' time.

Tuna and I both believe in god,but don't go to church on a normal bases. I know that God loves us wether we are at church or sitting in our living rooms. I know that we need to make a little extra time in our lives to go. This past weekend we went to North Dakota to my cousins wedding. At the wedding serves the pastor said a prayer and then had a moment of silence for your own prayer. I didn't think much of it..I said my prayer and watched the bride and groom become husband and wife. After the wedding was over we were waiting to be let out. Tuna leaned over and said to me "I have to tell you something." Okay I said "During the silent prayer I said..God I know I don't pray much but, I really wish we could get pregnant!!" I felt a wave of emotion come over me and said "I said the same thing!" So anyways I just thought I would share that kind of neat story with you!!

Again please keep us in your prayers and thoughts! ~Love The Lange's

The First Posting!!

So I have decided to start a blog believe it or not!! The reason is so that I can keep friends and family updated on the progress/lack of progress on our road with infertility. Some of you may not know our story, so I will start by telling it. Tuna and I knew each from high school..but never really talked. He was a year older then me and and I was WAY to good for him, so I thought! The summer after I graduated from high school my close friend Amanda and I started to hung out with a bunch of "new" people in that group was Tuna. We all hung out though the summer of 2004..and I started to date Tuna!! We dated for almost 1 year and he proposed to me!

The proposal was a total surprise to me..some how everyone kept a secret from me which is kind of hard to do!! I wouldn't say the proposal was the most romantic, but that is Tuna and that is why I love him..he loves the little things! He had just started at his current job at Farm Rite and we were still living at my mother's house. He called me from work and said he need to go to St.Cloud after work to pick something up for this "job", needless to say I was less then impress at the time! He got to my mother's house and hide the ring box in his hat. Came in to my room and sit next to me on the bed and said "I bought something for you today!!" I said "what is it?" well..."it is a ring..will you marry me?" my response was "How did you pay for it?" LOL!! Like I said it was not the most romantic, but that is not what mattered!

We planned a Saturday,October 28,2006 wedding! It was beautiful fall day. We had our closest family and friends there! Our wedding a pretty good size you could say..we each had 6 attendants on each side and 3 ring bears. It will be a day that I will never forget!

Sometime about year in to our marriage we started talking about have children. So we decided to start trying. I never thought we would have any problems trying to conceive a baby! I knew that my cycle was NEVER normal, but didn't give it much thought. So we "tried" on our own for a 5 months and then I decided that I should go to the doctor for some help. When I found out there was nothing they would do for you until you had "Medically" had been trying for a year. We did that with no luck on our own! So I went back to the doctor and he is a great doctor but just a general family doctor. So I decided to go see a fertility doctor. I was diagnosed with PCOS(Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). Which in a nut shell means I only get a few periods though the year and most likely don't ovulate.

So we started on a pill back in August,2009 called "Clomid" which is a fertility medication. In my case though it was suppose to help me get my cycle back to normal! So every month I would go back to the doctor and get a shot in my butt to start my "Fake" period, so I could take the medication in hope I would get my period on my own the next month. We tried that in for many months with now luck!

So this past month now March,2010 we started a new trial pill. This pill is a one time thing..If he works it works if it doesn't it doesn't! So we will see I go back to the doctor on April,30 2010! To see if it worked and if not what the next option is! Until then...Keep up in your prayers!! ~The Lange's